It starts in the same way. You’re casually making yourself a coffee, low cal, just like always. Waiting for the kettle to boil, you turn, lean on the counter. You see that bit of left-over food in the pan. You want it.You walk towards it to… investigate.You pick it up in your hands, it’s heavy. You look closely at it, smell it. ‘Hmm…..’ You slide the cutlery-drawer gently open, telling yourself: “just a little bit won’t hurt…. it’s good to eat sometimes at least….. I’ll still be below my calorie limit…. I can just do better tomorrow….” The fork is raised in your hand. Then this is likely to happen: You dig in. It tastes so good, you feel relieved, free to finally eat as much as you want. Fuck your plans. Fuck the diet. This tastes so good, I’ll diet tomorrow instead. You finish the leftovers and see bread on the side. “mmm bread” you think “want some of that.” You hastily open the bag, retrieve three slices of bread. Put one in your mouth immediately, so it hangs there, and slot the other two in the toaster, and shove down the switch. You bite into the piece of bread in your mouth. Yummmm! You think Go over to the fridge, get some reamy butter out, quick. Get out a knife and put plenty on. Roll over the bread and take glorious bites, you’re in heavan. You finnish quickly, open the fridge, and grab the orange juice. You unsrew the cap and gulp gulp gul straight from the carton. Screw it back on and replace it. “Yum cheese!” you think, and sieze the block of cheese. Put it on the counter, and cut yourself a slice, put it in your mouth, and chew while cutting another slice. You eat 4 slices and your toast pops up. “yay!” you think, grab the toast out of the toaster, put it on the butter lid that you left out, and spread copious amounts on as it melts into golden deliciousness. You grab one piece and start to munch away as you walk back over to the fridge to get the jam, you’re finished by the time you walk back. That was delicious! You spread the sweet jam on the other piece of toast and devour the syrupy, magical slice of toast. As you chew, your eyes meet the cereal. You grab a bowl and the box, scatter a bountiful amount of cereal into the bowl, and slosh on the full cream milk, and take a gulp from the carton for good measure. You get a spoon from the drawer, ad dig in. Its deliciously crunchy. You finnish. You see your coffee cup still in the counter, still waiting to be filled from the kettle that you didn’t hear boil because you were chewing so loudly. You look around at the kitchen. The open bread bag, the cheese half it’s orrigional size, the butter open, a knife smothered in jam, toast crumb everywhere, and open cereal box, spilled milk. The mess you just made in the kitchen reflects the mess you’ve just made of yourself. You’ve just eaten over 2,000 calories. You’ve surrendered. This will take you days to work off, days to just get back to where you were. You feel like an utter failiure. Or, scenario 2. You look at the food. Do I really want this? I mean…. I don’t even like food that much. And I really need to lose weight…. no. I don’t want to do this to myself. You put the fork back in the drawer, and the food back on the counter. Someone else can have those calories. Get a glass, fill it with wat, and drink up. T’s refreshing, you smile to yourself at how strong you just were. The kettle boils, you make yourself coffee and leave. “That wasn’t too hard. I can do this. I can be what I want to be. I can succeed.” You smile, you’re proud, and you deserve to be <3
^^^Damn! I think I will stop and read that every time before entering the kitchen, that was intense.
(Source: cry-a-river2swim-some-lengths)
![37 Day Christmas Weight Loss Challenge
Day 1 - Stats: Height, Current Weight, Goal Weight or Ultimate Goal Weight (height- 5’9, current weight-don’t have a scale, but assume it is around 150 :[ first goal weight-140, UGW-115 [any lower and i wont be able to donate blood… which is important to me])
Day 2 - The Weight you wish to be on Christmas Morning135 would be AMAZING! And if I tried hard enough, I can make it happen…
Day 3 - Describe How You Want to Feel at Christmas Dinners/Parties
Day 4 - Your Favourite Meal (be honest - healthy or unhealthy)
Day 5 - Are you Pro-Thinspo, Pro-Fitspo, Pro-Ana, Pro-Mia or Pro-Weight-loss? Why?
Day 6 - List 10 Things about Your Personality
Day 7 - What’s Your Current Weight: Did you lose anything these past 7 days? If you didn’t, what is your plan for the next?
Day 8 - Appearance: Body Part You Want to Change the Most
Day 9 - Brief Plans for the Holiday
Day 10 - Your Christmas Wishlist
Day 11 - Coffee or Tea? (Describe how you like your coffee or the type of tea you prefer)
Day 12 - Your Favourite Thinspo or Fitspo Quote
Day 13 - Your Biggest Problem or Issue that is Delaying You from Losing Weight
Day 14 - What’s Your Current Weight: Did you lose anything these past 7 days? If you didn’t, what is your plan for the next?
Day 15 - Junk Food: List All Your Weak Foods/Candies(be completely honest)
Day 16 - To Eat or Not to Eat?
Day 17 - Favourite Tumblr Weight Loss Blogs
Day 18 - Wear red or blue today to represent your pledge and dedication to this Christmas Weight Loss Challenge(post a picture?)
Day 19 - 3 Favourite Fruits
Day 20 - Something that Pisses You Off
Day 21 - What’s Your Current Weight: Did you lose anything these past 7 days? If you didn’t, what is your plan for the next?
Day 22 - 5 Reasons for Losing Weight
Day 23 - Handwrite the Last Thing You Ate
Day 24 - 12 Months Ago: Where Were You and What Were You Doing?
Day 25 - Does Your Weight Affect Your Mood?
Day 26 - Have you lost weight, and gained it back? Or are you maintaining your current weight?
Day 27 - What Are Your Exercise or Eating Habits?
Day 28 - What’s Your Current Weight: Did you lose anything these past 7 days? If you didn’t, what is your plan for the next?
Day 29 – 2 Weight Loss Blogs that follow you
Day 30 - What do you fear for the Holiday season?
Day 31 - Step on the scale. Do you like the weight you see - yes or no and why?
Day 32 - Skinny or Fit?
Day 33 - What did you eat today?
Day 34 - What is your ideal caloric intake/day?
Day 35 - Final Call: What is your current weight? Did you lose anything these past 7 days?
Day 36 - What are your weight loss or fitness goals for 2012?
Day 37 - Triumph! What is your Current Weight and Height? Did you reach your GW or UGW? Did you reach the weight you wanted to be for Christmas? How much weight, in general, did you lose?](http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_luvcyqWaqN1r2ziexo1_250.png)
